WOW...how time has flown

I know I have been MIA..I don't know how you all do it...I cant seem to find enough time to sit here and write all I want to write....

Nola is 15 months old...I cant believe where the time has gone. She is the love of my life..she is more than that but words can not describe....

She walks, she laughs a lot, she hugs, she kisses, and her smile is infectious...I am not sure what I did with my life before her. Its not all roses all the time though....as I have said to many people being a mom and taking care of her is easy..its the sleep deprivation that is an absolute killer...Yes, she sleeps 7-5 or sometimes longer but when she is teething it is a nightmare..I never remember anyone telling me teething times could be so bad! I think her last bottom eye tooth is coming in and then hopefully the top ones wont be so bad....she is such a good, good little girl.

For now, this is all I have time to write...Ill leave you with some pictures of my Nola Bear and hope to post again soon....I check all your blogs all the time though to make sure you are all doing OK :-)

Stopping Time

I wish there was a way to stop time...to make it freeze....

I knew when I got pregnant that this would more than likely be my only one...and when we found out it was our little Nola I knew we wouldn't have anymore. I still haven't had that feeling that I want to have another because its Nola I want to have all over again. I know that makes no sense to any of you I'm sure but...I love her more than I ever thought it was possible to love someone and I hate that she is already 7 months...

I'm a baby person...I want to freeze time right now...I want to freeze the smile that is plastered on her face every minute of every day. I want to freeze how she kicks in so much excitement when we walk in her room to get her from sleeping. I want to freeze how she giggles when I tickle her side. I want to freeze the mad women she has become in her jumparoo, up and down vigerously over and over (its hysterical). I want to freeze how she reaches for my face and brings it closer and I want to freeze how she giggles when swaddled when I kiss her lips.. I love her so much I want her to stay just he way she is.

I tell Jack (even though he already knows) that I don't want to have another baby, I want to have her all over again. She has been such a joy since the moment she joined the world...no colic, no crying spells, no nothing...just all smiles.

Is it terrible to be so sad that she is not always going to be little? I'm tearing up writing this just thinking about it...I know there are joys at each age but I want this age.

I looked at some old videos Jack took of Nola in her first few weeks and months and he squeals etc are the cutest thing ever and I already forgot what she was like somewhat and that was always my biggest fear if you ask him, forgetting.

I'm babbling I know...I don't post as much anymore because all my time when she is up is hers..and when she sleeps, I have to get things done so I am sorry I don't post as much. Anyhow, I just wanted to get that all off my chest.

Here are some recent pictures of my girl!

Happy 4th of July

Nola is 4 months old

Its been a little while since I had something post worthy...plus it seems like I am on here once a day reading but not posting...

Nola is doing wonderful - she is such a smiley, happy baby!!! She is still not sleeping through the night but I really don't care...she will be our only child (as I have mentioned before) and I try and savor every moment with her so if she wakes in the middle of the night, although I'm tired, I happily obliged and stare at her in wonder as I feed her.

She is now 4 months old and has started rice cereal 2 times a day...she is really funny with it and soo cute - I posted pictures of her first try! She is growing wonderfully... she is tiny at 12lbs 15oz but long at 24 3/4 inches...she is still in 0-3 clothing but in pj's (because they shrink) she is in 3 month and some 3-6...I still cant believe how tiny she is though...I have all these adorable suits in 3-6 that I am hoping she can fit into through the summer..especially her juicy couture one! hahah

We went to Florida with her to visit jacks parents in may and she did AMAZING! We were gone fro 10 days and went to 3 different cities...she never cried once on the plane and we had a lay over on the outbound and inbound flights. We landed in Tampa and went to his parents in Palm Harbor then after 3 days we drove to Disney and met my parents and my sister and bro in law and my 2 nieces and then after 5 days there we all drove to Punta Gorda to my parents condo's for 4 days and then home! She is truly a wonderful baby and I am not sure what I did in life to deserve such a great baby..whatever I did I am thankful.

Here are some pictures from Florida and her first try with rice cereal!

Random Post about Nola and Motherhood

I havent posted a real post since I think before Nola was born...I either cant find the time or feel that I have nothing interesting that you would feel like reading. But as I sit here Nola is napping so I figured Id write an entry. Ill try not to make it too boring...

Nola is wonderful. I ask myself all the time what I did right in this world to be lucky enough to deserve such a beautiful, happy, wonderful baby girl? When I say that sometimes to people they say, you went through so much to get her of course that is why you deserve her. Yes, I know I went through a lot but that seems so long ago now that I dont think that is the only reason. She is way more special than that...I feel I had to have done something above and beyond to have someone who laughs and smiles at me the minute she sees me. See, Im one of the lucky ones that works at night (right now just 1 night a week) and can spend oodles of time with her. When she is awake all I do is focus on her and in turn I get the biggest smiles and the best giggles...but that is because we are always together and I smother her with attention...she will be my old child and for that she will get everything from me. I know that you love all your children but I cant imagine loving another baby as much as I love her. Please dont misunderstand me, I know I would but I cant imagine it cause my love for her is so undescribable.

Infertility is a sucky thing....but I will tell you, I dont even think of it anymore...it almost seems like it never happened. I cant believe I spent 3 years trying to have her and then got pregnant and she is already here...time does have a way of flying by. I am truely blessed with this little girl who steals my heart everytime I look at her.