25 Weeks

I had my 25 week appointment yesterday! We are both doing good - Nola was still beating steadily at 150! Shes such a good baby already!

Unfortunately I did have to tell the doctor that I fell that morning like an idiot! Like seriously, in the middle of target none the less....I broke the fall with my hands and right knee so Nola was not touched at all but boy was I embarrassed! What a loser! She told me I might want to get rid of the heels and get some flats! Yeah, I know but I haven't found any I like and I like heals! She also told me that I HAVE to have the H1N1 shot which I had no intention of getting! She was very adamant so they will be calling when they get it.

I gained 6lbs for a total of 14 which makes me not a very happy girl but what can you do? I'm still within the normal curve but if I already gained 14 whats going to happen in the end? And my belly is small so where the hell is the weight going? hahahah I guess I better slow down on the pizza ha?

Nola's room is all painted. I picked up the chair and ottoman yesterday so Jack could bring it up today when he gets home from Florida. I bought an area rug that matched the ivory chenille chair but I am not sure I like it? And her furniture will be here next Saturday! YEAH!!! Sooo exciting! Here are some before and after pictures of the paint. Then I will take more when her furniture is here!

Have a great and safe Halloween!!!

Nola's Room before we started painting!

Nola's Room Painted!

Nola's Room Painted!

Seeing Nola

There really is not too much report - were still doing great over here. But I wanted to tell you all that we finally saw her kicking outside my stomach on Saturday!! I was so happy Jack got to see this finally - she is really a nut in there kicking and moving all the time! Last night after a very long day and Jack not being around when I went to bed I just watched my belly go! Sometimes I cant decide if Id rather watch the TV or her....its the most amazing experience.

Oh and her room is being painted right now as we speak. I took pictures of it empty and Ill take them while hes painting in stages - cant wait to see it finished with the furniture in it!

6 Months!

I made it! I actually questioned that I would some days. I have to say I cant believe I am here...The other day Jack and I were driving in the car and he said "I cant believe were expecting a little girl"..it was soo cute. I said trust me, neither can I.

When you go through infertility it wipes away all those hopes and dreams. I know a lot of people say they will always be infertile and I too always will consider myself part of that infertility club but, don't hate me for saying so (this is just how I, personally feel)I feel like I am so blessed to be where I am that I don't think about it much anymore...its in the past and I will keep it there. It doesn't mean that I would ever say or do anything to make an infertile person feel less I'm just saying that my infertility is now in the past and I would like to keep it like that.
We only really ever planned on having one child so I'm not worried about the future of getting pregnant. I do know that being infertile has helped me help a lot of people and if that is something I can share into the future then in the end I will feel that it was all worth it. Well...worth it now of course when she kicks and worth it when we see her beautiful face for the first time. She will be the light of our life and for that, infertility, I am thankful. You do learn to appreciate things I think a little more....is that selfish or rude to say? I think sometimes people think I am nuts to always be touching my stomach or to always be referring to her as if she was here but I cant help it after everything. She truly is our little miracle.

I do hope and have faith that all who read this that have not made it to their miracle quite yet will get there. Whether it be by IUI, IVF, Adoption, Surrogacy, Donor Eggs etc. It does take a lot out of you and there will be a lot of times where you feel like this is it and you can't possibly go on longer, but you do, and it will happen when you least expect it too. Remember it took me 2.5 years to get here and there were plenty of times that I wanted to quit and did..but I always went back, because in the end I knew this is where I wanted to be.

With that said, here are some 6 month pictures of me.

6 months pregnant


This is a close up of me

This is a picture further away

Not a Great Day

Today was not a good day....Today's bad day ended with me in the hospital!

I woke up this morning and when I went to the bathroom it felt like my abdomen or bladder really hurt. I thought maybe I help my pee to long haha and over filled my bladder...But, when I started to walk around the house I realized how much pain I was in. I made it downstairs but it was awful. Jack had just gotten back from a run so i explained to him how much pain I was in and that I had to go lay in bed.

We had my nieces first birthday party to attend at 1pm so I thought if I laid low I would be OK. I took Tylenol and laid down til 12. I got up to get in the shower and brought my computer over to my desk and had to sit down again because I was in so much pain! WTF was going on?!

I told Jack I had to stay home and lay low and that I called the on call doctor. I found it hard to believe that it could be round ligament pain - seriously? It felt like I was having a diverticulitis flair up or backed up gas or a muscle pull!!! She told me that it was probably one of those but to watch it and to call her later. I had no other symptoms that would have led her to believe anything else.

I sat on the couch literally all afternoon while Jack went to the party without me! I used the heating pad as she suggested and took a GasX. I was feeling a little better - at least not as bad as I was before. At about 5 I had to go to the bathroom so I got up and was like OK...I'm good but the minute I went to the bathroom I thought I would die - the pain was so bad that I hardly could walk back to the couch. I finally made it back and sat down and rested for a minute. Figured I better call the doctor again, there is NO WAY this is round ligament pain! Seriously, I couldn't even walk! So when I called her I had started to feel soo much better - no pain anymore at all! But she said since it happened when I went to the bathroom she wanted me to come in because she didn't want to miss it if I hard the start of an infection!

I called Jack to come home from watching the Patriots to take me. We got there at about 545 and they put me in a room...they had me go give a urine sample and then the nurse came in and hooked me up to a monitor to check Nola's heart beat and she was fine (which I knew cause she has been kicking up a storm all day)! Then she hooked me up to another monitor to make sure I was not having contractions - which I wasn't thankfully!

I was feeling like such an ass because I felt fine now at this point! And I was starving and pissed cause they said nothing to eat or drink unless I could see through it until they knew what was up. Finally at 8pm....the doctor came in and said my urine was fine (good!) and proceeded to press on my belly at all points. She said if it was diverticulitis, it would still be very tender (which I am aware of) and that it was more than likely - yes you guess it! - friggen round ligament pain! I was like seriously - that painful that it would cause me to not be able to walk? Really...she said, yes absolutely. She said some people don't have it at all and then some people can get it so bad its debilitating! Yeah, tell me about it! So they cleared me to go home!

I am so glad that nothing was wrong....although it annoys me that it was something so stupid! But, I'm so glad that Nola is OK and that is all I cared about. I will not let anything happen to her! Not after all this time!

So, now I am home, I had pizza and french fries for dinner which was awesome and Nola is kicking up a storm still...She is seriously so active its nuts! But, I'm so glad I went to the hospital cause I never would have forgiven myself if there was in fact an issue and I ignored it because I felt stupid!

Nola's Furniture

I bought Nola's furniture today!!!

There is a picture below - it only shows the crib, hutch and armoire but we also got the night stand and 5 draw chest!!!!

Tell me what you think!