I made it! I actually questioned that I would some days. I have to say I cant believe I am here...The other day Jack and I were driving in the car and he said "I cant believe were expecting a little girl"..it was soo cute. I said trust me, neither can I.
When you go through infertility it wipes away all those hopes and dreams. I know a lot of people say they will always be infertile and I too always will consider myself part of that infertility club but, don't hate me for saying so (this is just how I, personally feel)I feel like I am so blessed to be where I am that I don't think about it much anymore...its in the past and I will keep it there. It doesn't mean that I would ever say or do anything to make an infertile person feel less I'm just saying that my infertility is now in the past and I would like to keep it like that.
We only really ever planned on having one child so I'm not worried about the future of getting pregnant. I do know that being infertile has helped me help a lot of people and if that is something I can share into the future then in the end I will feel that it was all worth it. Well...worth it now of course when she kicks and worth it when we see her beautiful face for the first time. She will be the light of our life and for that, infertility, I am thankful. You do learn to appreciate things I think a little more....is that selfish or rude to say? I think sometimes people think I am nuts to always be touching my stomach or to always be referring to her as if she was here but I cant help it after everything. She truly is our little miracle.
I do hope and have faith that all who read this that have not made it to their miracle quite yet will get there. Whether it be by IUI, IVF, Adoption, Surrogacy, Donor Eggs etc. It does take a lot out of you and there will be a lot of times where you feel like this is it and you can't possibly go on longer, but you do, and it will happen when you least expect it too. Remember it took me 2.5 years to get here and there were plenty of times that I wanted to quit and did..but I always went back, because in the end I knew this is where I wanted to be.
With that said, here are some 6 month pictures of me.
6 months pregnant
This is a close up of me
This is a picture further away