Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Why is EVERYTHING about babies

Why is everything about babies? Or does it just seem that way since I want one? Maybe I never noticed as much before?

It seems as if every episode lately on one of my favorite shows "Private Practice" is all about babies. I know the main character on the show is an ob but I never noticed before. Of course now that I am writing this I cant remember what the other shows were. But its like either everyone is pregnant or everything is about pregnancy. Oh yeh, General Hospital is one...for those of you that watch I love Robin but enough is enough with the baby crap!

I am only 7 days past ovulation and I was such a rip roaring bitch at work tonight(like with PMS) I couldn't control it. What is up with that? Oh and then someone says maybe your pregnant? Well, first off I'm not or I'm probably not but if I was I certainly wouldn't have psycho symptoms quite yet.

And how much of a bummer is it that AF will be due around the 23rd? Wouldn't it be nice if I could wake up and tell Jack on Christmas day that we are expecting. Do you do that like I do? EVERY MONTH.....think about how you will tell your spouse you are pregnant? and do you ever get the chance? I certainly don't.

What happens when one of us infertile bloggers actually gets pregnant. Do we continue with our blog and turn it into something else or do we just abandon it and start a new one? How do we leave all our infertile friends behind?

But, I digress

Everything is about babies when your infertile. I received a message 2 nights ago that someone I went to H.S. with, his wife lost their baby at 4 months. How does that happen? Why does that happen? And here we are feeling jealous of the fact that she was foolish do we feel now? I wish I could reach out to her and tell her how sorry I am...but I am sure the last thing she wants is to talk to anyone.

Its coming down to the wire...When AF arrives (which she probably will) I will have to go back to my RE...either that or schedule a consult at The Reproductive Science Center for a second opinion. I don't want to do this at all...Even though I really want to have a baby with hubby...I so don't want to go to the doctor - I know I say it all the fricken time but I just want it to happen on its own. I dont know about all you but I feel like I am banging my head against a brick wall.


  1. Melissa, i agree, my show eli stone the girl is pregnant and IT WASNT SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN and then get this i have started to record 7th heaven and that show is old its not like we can come to the conclusion that all new shows are focusing on it becasue where i decied to start recording it you find out that three of the children are pregnant ALL WITH TWINS so theres six babies for ya!! but like you then said the next episode was one of them having a miscarriage so feeling foolish. Oh there is more pedro watches these stupid spanish soap operas and as if americcan ones are dramatic enough, one girl is prego and she was histerical (sad way)...uugh!! miss you when i am gone

  2. I know exactly what you mean. It DOES seem like everyone is pregnant. Grr!!

    As for imagining how you'll tell your husband....yeah. I do that...every.single.month. It makes the 2ww a little easier to imagine, but then when AF comes, it's like a major heartbreak.

    I'm with you about the Christmas AF. Mine is due the 24th -ish.

    Fingers crosse for both of us, OK?

  3. I think everyone IS pregnant! I'm sorry that you have to go to the doctor and don't want to. I do feel like banging my head on a brick wall sometimes, but I've found a little hope in the doctor. I hope you do too.

  4. Thanks for stopping by my blog!

    I am a General Hospital fan too. I have been since I was a teenager and watched it with my mom. I only get a chance to catch it during the summer and my other days off. I've caught enough to get nauseated from watching Robin as a mom.

    How did you like the private practice that dealt with IVF? I couldn't keep my mouth shut. I kept commenting on everything that was BS about the episode. . . Oh Hollywood!

    I know what it's like to get tired of IF treatments. I hope your break has given you the strength to tackle it head on.

    I'll be reading.

  5. I just found your blog and ended up reading posts from back in October! I can relate quite a bit to you and your feelings!! Sometimes I feel like being in the world of Infertility is like being in a secret club- that you don't have any idea about it until/unless you are unfortunate enough to be thrown into it unwillingly.

    Everything DOES feel like it's about babies- every show seems to have some baby angle to it these days- many times even about infertility!(Do you watch "Brothers & Sisters" on Sunday nights???- check it out) The holidays aren't helping either!!

    I wish you the best of luck. I'll be starting my 3rd cycle of IVF in February (after having a m/c with my 2nd IVF in Sept.) Here's to BABIES for us in '09!!!