Why is everything about babies? Or does it just seem that way since I want one? Maybe I never noticed as much before?
It seems as if every episode lately on one of my favorite shows "Private Practice" is all about babies. I know the main character on the show is an ob but I never noticed before. Of course now that I am writing this I cant remember what the other shows were. But its like either everyone is pregnant or everything is about pregnancy. Oh yeh, General Hospital is one...for those of you that watch I love Robin but enough is enough with the baby crap!
I am only 7 days past ovulation and I was such a rip roaring bitch at work tonight(like with PMS) I couldn't control it. What is up with that? Oh and then someone says maybe your pregnant? Well, first off I'm not or I'm probably not but if I was I certainly wouldn't have psycho symptoms quite yet.
And how much of a bummer is it that AF will be due around the 23rd? Wouldn't it be nice if I could wake up and tell Jack on Christmas day that we are expecting. Do you do that like I do? EVERY MONTH.....think about how you will tell your spouse you are pregnant? and do you ever get the chance? I certainly don't.
What happens when one of us infertile bloggers actually gets pregnant. Do we continue with our blog and turn it into something else or do we just abandon it and start a new one? How do we leave all our infertile friends behind?
But, I digress
Everything is about babies when your infertile. I received a message 2 nights ago that someone I went to H.S. with, his wife lost their baby at 4 months. How does that happen? Why does that happen? And here we are feeling jealous of the fact that she was pregnant....how foolish do we feel now? I wish I could reach out to her and tell her how sorry I am...but I am sure the last thing she wants is to talk to anyone.
Its coming down to the wire...When AF arrives (which she probably will) I will have to go back to my RE...either that or schedule a consult at The Reproductive Science Center for a second opinion. I don't want to do this at all...Even though I really want to have a baby with hubby...I so don't want to go to the doctor - I know I say it all the fricken time but I just want it to happen on its own. I dont know about all you but I feel like I am banging my head against a brick wall.