After time goes on things really do get better. Im not sure how it worked for you but for me it really solidifed that I wanted to have children. I know your thinking she didnt know??? well I did but but once I was pregnant I felt like "Am I sure???" I know a lot of women go through that when they get pregnant and I did too but after the miscarriage I definitely knew that it was what I wanted. I was soo sad after losing the baby - or whatever it was? I also felt like such a failure and most of all I felt so bad for my husband - that I lost his baby. Eventually you do get over the sadness and you move on.
I was actually feeling pretty good. I mean hey I got pregnant and most people said oh a lot of people get pregnant pretty soon after a miscarriage. That actually helps you move on because you think well it will happen probably for me too! But as the months went on, nothing happened. Was I not timing it right? Was something wrong? Was I overthinking it? I always swore I would NOT be one of those people who obsessed over it. Guess what? I became just that and it was driving me mad. But, I just figured it would happen.
In November 2007 I was in New Jersey visiting my cousin with my mom and for some reason she told me that her friends daughter was seeing Dr.Hughes in Lowell. Dr.Hughes is a fertility specialist at a hospital about 5 minutes from my house. She said that he was wonderful! I figured really what could it hurt to talk to him and maybe see whats going on. So I made the call and made an appointment for December.