I thought about something the other day...I was telling my BBF (Best Blogger Friend) Liv over at The Life of Liv how much my mother has done for me and what she means to me....especially through this IF journey/struggle.
For those of you that don't know me personally, my family is VERY close...I have 2 younger sisters that I talk to at least 2 times a day and I talk to my mom about 2/3 times a day. I try not to call my dad and bother him cause he is super busy at work. But we are all very close and try and even hang out together - all of us - once a week at the least.
When I got pregnant 2 years ago, my sister was the first person I told. We then invited my family over for dinner to tell them as a surprise...everyone of course was thrilled - mom had been waiting/wanting me to get pregnant for I am sure a long time. She was SOOO excited she couldn't wait to tell all her friends...which of course we told people not realizing it was too early because in all honesty - why would you think anything would go wrong...but unfortunately it did.
The day I went to the doctors I went with my sister...we were seeing the same OB (she at the time pregnant with her 2nd). Jack was working and to be honest, it was just a routine first test...I will tell you thank god she was there...my sister is not an overly emotional person (like myself) but she really tried to make me feel better and to comfort me.
I was told to pass it at home and that a D&C was not necessary since there was nothing there but an empty sac. Over the next few days I had nothing really until one day I went to work (at a new restaurant also) and had to leave cause of severe cramps.
I drove myself home 15 minutes while I cried and was in pain...(there might be a little too much TMI next) As soon as I got home I came upstairs and sat on the toilet and didn't move. I cant tell you how many times I called my mom...She just talked to me the whole time. She was going to a wake that night but kept saying that if I wanted her to come over she would head over now. I told her there was really nothing that she could do. I sat on the toilet for literally like 2 hours. I was afraid to get up - I didn't know what was going to happen or what was going to come out.
I called the nurses office and she told me that I had to get up and put a pad on to make sure I am not bleeding to much and need to go to the ER but I couldn't...After about another hour..I said Mom, maybe you could come over..she said of course, at least I can make you something to eat...so I decided I needed to be brave and get up. I put a pad on and got up. I made it down the stairs and had to run to the toilet again...I was so afraid - it felt soo wierd...
Mom was there and I sat there with the door open just sitting there...she just talked to me..I cant even tell you how long it was but she was there for me the entire time...at one point I felt something so odd...and it was like nothing I have ever seen..I freaked out - I asked her if she could please look (even though I know its so gross) because I have no idea if this is normal or not..so she did and she just said that is fine - everythings fine...I felt so much better after that and was able to get up...I went and sat on the couch...she called whomever and said that she would not be able to make the wake because she was going to stay with me...we watched a movie and she waited for Jack to come home.
Since that dreadful day - she has always been soo supportive...she asks all the time how things are, has offered to go to 6am appointments with me if Jack cant. She always says that I will have a baby...and I tell her that I am not so sure and she says - I will and that she is going to stay positive for both of us...I am glad that she says that cause I need someone to be positive for both of us.
I wanted to share this with you all because she is such a wonderdul, giving person and I wanted to let you all see that. Not only does she do all this for me...I cant even start to tell you what she does for other people.
She has literally been more than a mother to me over the past 2 years and I cant wait til the day I do have a child because I know how lucky they are going to be to have her in their life!
Thanks Mom, I love you!
P.s. I hope you all have someone in your life like my mom, whether it be your mom, an aunt, grandmother etc...take this time to thank them - they wont be around forever.