Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I have the worst anxiety known to man right now...Jack and I have this week off and had talked about driving to Myrtle Beach or something but its only like 55/60 degrees in Myrtle Beach so he decided lets do a last minute trip...I on the other hand HATE to fly ( as I have mentioned before) and am having such anxiety that I am literally sick to my stomach.
I didn't sleep at all last night and my eyes are so tired and I woke up and saw that he had put some information on my desk (haven't exactly booked the trip yet) and I started to cry - Ive been crying all day - I don't want to fly - ever - again!
I tried to appeal to him that I am just not into flying now with everything else going on...he's not buying it and wants to go away....Ive cried and everything. The only thing I didn't do was say - I'm sorry - but I WONT go...I feel bad - he works so hard all the time to provide for me and for the family we will someday have that I cant bare to tell him NO I CANT GO!
I tried to talk him into driving to FL again and getting on a 4 day cruise - Nope..a no go!
What am I going to do?
With Love, Melissa Griffin