Sunday, January 4, 2009

The BIG day

I never thought that I would even up say the least.

A year ago I was starting with my fertility doctor thinking...Ill just go to him, he'll figure out whats wrong and if I have to do an IUI then so be it..

Now, here we are a year later and baby less. Although, that is somewhat my doing. Around May I decided I need a break. Seriously, when I cried through the entire finale of "The Bachelorette" I knew something had to change so I decided I was done for a few months with a small break - Ill just take the summer off. Those 4 months turned into 8. I did start acupuncture which I am so glad I did but I just COULD NOT bring myself to go back to the doctor.

I LOVED the way I felt without the drugs and without the 6am appointments. But the dreaded fact about all of it is I'm still not pregnant.

I don't want to NEED help to get pregnant, I want to just get pregnant like the rest of the fricken world..or at least like some of the world. But apparently that's not in the cards! Someone very close to me said "some of us just need help, and that's just the way it is". She is 100% right, I wish she was wrong but shes not.

SO tomorrow is the big day. Our 2 hour consultation with a new RE at an actual fertility center. I hope she has some answers for us or a plan that I am comfortable with. I never thought that I would be here but I am cause I guess I am just one of those people that "needs help"...

Stay Tuned....


  1. my blog is going crazy, so I dunno why you can't comment...but listen...I hope you get the answers you need and I hope there's a clear plan for you, you deserve to be a mommy....

  2. Wishing the best for tomorrow ~ hope you find that plan! And even if it doesn't come tomorrow, please know in your heart that you are taking your "next steps" toward becoming a mommy! (((HUGS)))

  3. Thinking of you! Can't wait to hear how it goes! Feel free to ask questions...I'd be happy to offer any advice that I can.