Wednesday, January 14, 2009

A New Leaf

SO I had that dream...those 2 separate dreams that I was pregnant which we all know means someone is...or 2 people are...I don't have really any friends left that are not pregnant so I am wondering who will now come out of the woodwork? I am prepared.

Today is 12 dpo - I have NEVER in 9 months been past 12 days...AF ALWAYS arrived on dpo 12 but shes not here and my temp is still up 97.9 BUT I know that I am not pregnant cause I have my lovely period feelings in my abdomen that I get every month...she just wants to screw with me this month...2 years exactly to when I got pregnant last time. She sucks!

I went to dinner with two friends last night that are pregnant. I know most of you who read this will think - why would I do that? TO be honest, I'm letting go....I don't want to feel shitty anymore that I cant seem to get pregnant...its not making me pregnant any faster so I'm letting it go. We have a plan and I feel so much better. These 2 friends were so wonderful. Not only did they not over talk about pregnancy - they asked questions and listened intently and were genuinely sympathetic. I could not have asked for anything better. I don't want to lose friends because I cant get over that they are pregnant and I'm not. So I'm taking a new approach. Its 2009 and I'm over it...I'm going to let it go and see what happens...Maybe there will be truth in what people say...IF I relax maybe it will happen...and guess what if it doesn't in 6 months...we move on to our next step.

Seems Easy Enough...


  1. If you do get pregnant from relaxing, PLEASE don't tell anyone! We hear it enough as it is! :)

    I'm glad you are finding some peace. Especially since you have a lot of pregnant friends. I hope you won't need that plan, but if you do, they are so nice to have!

  2. Thanks for the reminder...I think it's great that you are trying to be peaceful about other women getting pregnant. I started doing that a few months ago, and it has really helped. Sometimes it's easier than others, I find. I especially needed that reminder today, so thanks!

    I'll be checking in on you in the next few days...any idea if you are going to test? I have a good feeling! :-)

  3. I am glad you are feeling so positive. And I too enjoy hanging out with my pregnant friends (most of them) It really depends on the friend. I hope that in the next six months you come down with a terrrible case of morning sickness. Hey maybe in the next couple days. Stay away Aunt flow you arent welcome here!!

  4. Hey Girl.... soooo I told you about all my dreams... and I still haven't heard of any of my friends that are pregnant yet.... I'm still hoping it's you!!!! See you soon..... I hope!!

  5. Good for you! I am glad you are feeling positive.