Monday, January 19, 2009

Dear Diary

Today I learned that I hurt someones feelings by writing some things on my blog. I did not write these things to intentionally hurt them although it may have seemed that way.

I write on this blog as an outlet for feelings that most people will not understand. The people that do understand (most infertility bloggers) will sympathize with what I have said and truly understand the sadness that sometimes surrounds the things we all say on our blogs.

Writing in the blog is not something that is done so we can talk badly about people its just our way to communicate with the outside world on things that bother us that can or can not be fixed.

Diary - I would never want anyone I know that reads this to ever feel like I love them or think of them any less than I do. No matter what I write about my friendships are a separate entity. Even if feelings surrounds these friends - I still love them no matter what. I hope that they never take what I say personally as a shot against them. If they do or if they have, I am truly sorry - this blog was never meant to hurt anyones feelings. It was meant to soothe my own.

For those that read my blog faithfully and know my struggle, I am glad that you read because without you...I would never have met so many wonderful people that understand what its like to be me right now.

For those of you that dont follow my blog and happen to stop by occasionally, please don't feel slighted by what I say...I may have said it when I was truly hurt and at my worst and needed somewhere to vent. And if I have hurt any of you friends that ready this blog, I am truly sorry from the bottom of my heart. And If you know me at all you know I would never hurt anyone intentionally.


  1. That same thing happened to me when I gave my SIL my blog link. She read all of my moans and groans about being infertile, and at the time she was pregnant. She couldn't read what I was writing and not think everything I said was about her. So we got into a big fight and ever since we've not been able to quite look at each other in the same way. She doesn't think what she said to me was wrong, and I don't think what I said to her was wrong. Who's at fault? I don't know. I guess me for telling these things to people who cannot understand it. It was for that reason I started a new blog and deleted my old one. I didn't give her the new link. As far as I'm concerned, people can't understand it unless they're going through it, even though they say they want to.

  2. It's a shame when people take something personally that truly has nothing to do with them. Please don't stop doing what you do and sharing your honest feelings and interactions with those around you. It helps those of us who are in your same situation feel normal, if only for a moment.

  3. I wouldn't hurt anyone intentionally either... with the exception of rotten people who deserve it. But hey, I'm one person who's not going to get offended. It's your blog; I say, write what you like!

  4. hi,
    i just spent about an hour reading your blog. i love it! it reads like a book, if that makes sense? Anyway, i'm glad you like your new RE and that you and your DH have a plan!! woot!! I hope 2009 brings you everything you want!!